Okay so here's a few things I should update you on. The apartment is AMAZING. I couldn't ask for a better enviornment, place to live, and OF COURSE my roomates!!! It's awesome!! Me and Ry are offically going out :P:P well we have been, but I never told you mindsay. So I am now. Can I tell you that I smile about him at least 5 times a day when things remind me of him? Promise you won't tell?! SWEET.

So another thing, our electricity went out last wednesday. Totally out, for about 18 hours or so. Good times lol, Erin came in the room at 5:00 when it went off and me, her and Jess stayed up for 45 minutes talking about it. Then we realized that it meant no food at all, except donut holes and triscuits. Also, no hot water. It blew ass, but we got through it :P :P.

Totally have a fuckin painful ulcer on the tip of my tongue from stress. My classes aren't so bad so far, I haven't gotten completely lost, but I have gotten completely behind in work because I don't do my homework. My snazzy whiteboard says I have 2 tests next week. 2 quizzes this week as usual. And a lab report each week. It's fun.

Another thing I wanted to do today was to reflect on people who've been in my life who I've lost. Mainly family.

Grandma Fassnacht (great grandmom) - You were the first person to ever leave me...I remember I was 11 or so years old. And I remember you had just made it to my birthday, because you passed about a week after it. I was so excited that you made it out of your house in years just to be there. I barely remember things except when we had to clear out your house. And when I'd come to visit, your house smelt like old people. Sorry...it did. I always remember you smiling though too.

Great Grandma Schwartz (Mahgie) - Not sure to this day why we nicknamed you the way we did, but theres so many things I could tell you that I remember. New years day coming to your house to celebrate christmas for the 2nd time with the family. You always had your jar of M&M's. One regular, one peanut. I remember my mom singing me songs you taught her, and at your funeral, we sung one of my favorites as we tossed candy at your casket. I don't think we realized till we heard the clanking that it wasn't a good idea lol. But I'm sure you don't mind. I can imagine what you'd say while you were in it. "God dammit, you're all a bunch of nuts" Or something rather sarcastic...I remember when we'd get in your wheelchair and race around the house, or play outback or in the garage. It was always an adventure at your house. Sorry they turned it into a Commerce bank :(. Lol. I love and miss you to this day!!! And your sarcasm :P.

Grandmom Mellon (Nana) - Comsi Bella. That's what you alllllllllways called me and it made me smile each time. You always used to say 'Faccia Brute" (what a face)....that made me laugh too, even though I always thought you were calling me ugly. You made me proud to be what I am, Italian, and damn proud. I never cared what I looked like because of you, I"m not sure why...you hated your picture being taken. I remember when you got sick, I didn't come to the hospital except once or twice. I was scared. I hate hospitals but that's no excuse. I do hope you forgave me....I still have the poem about that penny you gave me. Along with the ornaments you crochet'd for us.

Grandpop Fassnacht (Pop-pop) - What can I say? I don't think anyone's still over losing you...It was so tough to lose someone who held us all together for so long. You're lucky Mommom's so strong....I can't remember to much from when I was little, but every piece of a memory I have left of you was so much laughter and dry sarcasm that you so graciously passed on to your 5 children, their spouses, and your 13 grandchildren. Even Christopher's picking up on it. I remember the day he was born and you cried. It took 11 tries but you finally got a grandchild to carry on the name. Hell even I was excited. We have Ethan now too. He'll be a Fassnacht :P You reminded me so much of Grandma Schwartz and her sarcasm that I'd always get confused about which one was your mom. I love you and miss you soooooooo much and it's still hard to think about you not being here.

Grandpop Mellon (Pop-pop) - "You're full of soup" You always said that to me and I remember laughing and thinking you were nuts. I hated soup, so how the hell was I full of it!? But no matter what, it was always laughing. You were always relaxed, like nothing bothered you. As long as you had your golf and a beer, it was all good :P. I know you always would come to my games, and Kyle's too...and sometimes other kids, you loved watching us play. You thought it was hilarious and loved to just sit and laugh at us. Thanks. Thanks a lot. lol.

I love thinking about how I fit into my family and where I got things. I know Mahgie gave me her philosophy on life about not giving a shit, and being happy doing whatever you do and just being surrounded by family. Grandma Fassnacht you definetly gave me my maturity and class...what little I have...lol...Poppop Fassnacht...definetly passed on your sense of humor and that it's okay to be crazy and really taught me to 'dance like no ones watching'. Nana, other then pride, and my love of cooking, you passed on your tendency to worry to much...I know I shouldn't but like you said when we'd laugh about you getting so worried "You'll get yours someday" and now I know what you mean :P. Poppop Mellon, you passed on your mellow attitude that life's to short to get upset or deal with drama....I miss you all and love you so much....And Poppop Fassnacht...thanks for the hugs...I keep them in my piggy bank...until I hit up the coinstar...but don't think I don't appreciate them.