Sad excuses

and false hopes high

i saw this coming

still i don't know why

i let you in

so who do i blame for this? i blame you for just utterly giving up. i blame my parents for not letting me come home every weekend, though that probably wouldn't have made a difference. i blame myself for getting way too attatched, and thinking there was something there. i blame myself for letting you get inside my skin. but i stand by my policy of no regrets. did i know it was too good to be true? yes, but like erin's quote says, i believed in the impossible. "even though they know something is impossible, why do people still believe in it?"

who knows why we do. but anyway, i definetly thought this would make my bad day so much worse, but actually, i feel like it made my day, and i'm not sure why. kinda awkward i know. but i think it's mainly because i knew you gave up a long time ago, but realizing now that stressing over you wasn't because i was going crazy, but it's because you're so predictable that i read you. so now i know, i wasn't so crazy, i was just holding onto false hopes. :P :P lol okay so i cried until i almost got sick, for about a half hour. but now, i can't stop giggling and laughing. :P :P lol, it's like a breath of fresh air, and all the craziness is gone. sweet cheese.

well at least...okay, no at leasts, i'll probably be sad later or something, and i'm sure i'll think about how i miss you later, but right now, i don't care, and it's a bit scary. the only thing i wanna know, is if you actually cared at all this whole time. have some balls this time and let me know :P :P. i still like you, so don't think i hate you or i'm against you. i'm just angry with you right now. and i should be, but i'll get over it, just like the rest.

So take your empty words

your broken promises

and all the time you stole

cuz i am done with this